I did it.

I really fucking did it.

50,000 words.

I never stick to things. I go into them all excited and throw myself into it with all of my energy, then usually about halfway through, three quarters if I'm really motivated, I lose interest and forget about it.

But not this time.

I still have a few loose ends to go back and tie up and I need to write the ending, but I made my word count.

I am so unbelievably impressed with myself right now.

All of my posts have been about NaNo lately because, to be honest, I haven't had much else going on. But tonight my friend Melissa called. She found a puppy abandoned by the highway and she invited me over. She does a lot of rescue work and knew I was toying with the idea of getting another dog. I walked into her house and fell in love. I didn't even have to think twice, I knew the little guy was coming home with me. He's cuddled up in my lap right now.

I'm not sure exactly what he is (other than fuzzy and adorable) but he looks like he may be Rottweiler/Australian Shepard/Chow/Lab or something similar. He's black with brown markings like a Rottie, but he's fuzzy like a Chow and his face looks like a mix of shepard and lab. Sadie LOVES him. She's stayed close by him all night and she keeps trying to play. So far he's too little and she's too bouncy, but I'm sure they'll figure it out eventually.

I'm trying to come up with a name for him. At first I thought Lex Luther, but I'm not set on that. I also like Rocky Balboa and Chuck Norris. Anyone have any suggestions?

I'm sick of writing. Sick of it, I tell you! It seems the closer I get to the end the harder it gets to form coherent sentences. I might feel better if I knew it was any good, but I can't seem to get any feedback! I've sent copies to a couple of friends and they said that it was good, but they also read all of two chapters and that's it. Makes me wonder how good it really could have been if they can't bother themselves to read any more of it. I have 6,159 words left. I wish I could just spit them all out right now and have done with it.

*Bangs head repeatedly against keyboard*

I think I'm going to bake brownies. It seems like the only solution at this point.

I was on the phone with my mom earlier, whining about being the fifth (or actually the eleventh) wheel yet again at a get-together I'm going to today. She said, "Well, honey, I guess you're just going to have to go out and find yourself a man." Pause. "Or woman. You know, whatever makes you happy!"

My mom rocks.

I can't even believe it. I am less than 10,000 words away from being done. I might pass out. Of course, that might just be because I'm so tired I can't keep my eyes open, but a big part of it is the close to finishing thing, I'm pretty sure.

40,280 words. Wowzers. I'm so tired that I'm becoming inarticulate and being reduced to using words such as "wowzers" to state my delight and amazement, so I'm taking that as my cue to get off the computer and go to bed already. G'night.

Woohoo! I just hit 32,000 words! I only have 18,000 to go. Funny how that doesn't seem like much anymore. I only need an average of 1200 a day now. Hopefully I'll be able to get to at least 33,000 by tonight. That would really help for the days when I'm feeling totally uninspired, which have been most days right here lately.

I'm skipping all over the place, from scene to scene, writing whatever moment I have mapped out in my head. I hope I can get everything to flow together when I fill in the gaps. I was a bit worried about being able to come up with enough story to make it to 50,000. I'm still a little worried, but I have a few big scenes left and a couple that can be fleshed out more, so hopefully I'm in good shape.

I think I need a brain break for awhile, so I'm going to just walk away, maybe take a nap.

I'm debating cutting about 3500 words. I just don't know if the romance angle is really working for me. I don't want that to become the focus of the story. I don't want my character to be the girl that gets distracted from her mission by some guy. Ugh.

The writing has been slow the past couple of days, to say the least. Thankfully tomorrow is Friday. I've done really well with my word count over the past two weekends, I'm counting on that happening again to help me get back on track. Too bad I don't have another long weekend.

Only 563 words today. Terrible, terrible. I just couldn't buckle down and get anything done. I watched America's Next Top Model and Glee instead. I know, super productive. I don't know how much I'll get done tomorrow either. It's one of my best friend's little boy's eighth birthday tomorrow, and we're having a party for him. I am back on 11-7 on Friday, though, so I can stay up super late and hopefully get something accomplished.

For real's, I have GOT to name my love interest/sidekick. Everywhere that his name is supposed to be is . I swear if I have to read or write one more time I will lose my mind. Somebody do it for me. He's half-Japanese, tall, dark, handsome, strong, brave...the whole nine. Hope that helps. Now get to work people.

I slacked off today, ran some errands this morning and afternoon. I have to go back to work tomorrow, but I did accomplish my goal for this long weekend.

My character and her accomplice/love interest are about to leave the country. Anyone want to suggest where they go? Tropical island, some European country? Open to any suggestions.

I just hit the halfway point! The goal I set for this long weekend to was to get to 25,000 before I went back to work on Wednesday, and I accomplished it a day early. I am ridiculously proud of myself.

I'm having so much fun with the story, too. I am living vicariously through my character in so many different ways right now. My closest friends know of my undying obsession with Asian men (I just think they're so beautiful I can't even stand it) so naturally I had to make her love interest Japanese. He is still unnamed, but I'm a little in love with him myself at this point.

I wish I wasn't about to fall asleep onto my keyboard. I almost feel like I have another couple thousand words in me.